Weigh-In Wednesday.......

 

 

 Happy Hump Day!!! Well we are half way there to the weekend.  Today I am doing Weigh-In Wednesday with Erin & Alex.  All in all it has been a decent week.  I was able to get my sweat on Monday and Tuesday after work and then I got up at 5AM (that's right it is possible to get your sweat on by yawning).  So I am pretty proud of myself this week in th exercise department.  I will say I am loving the 30 day shred and am looking forward to moving on to level 2 on Saturday.  Any of you awesome bloggers out there doing this?  Are you adding any additional stuff to this work out cardio, weights etc?

So in the weigh in department I am down to 178.2, which is about 2.4 pounds total since I started the diet bet I am considering a win since it is that TOTM! I definitely can tell a difference in my clothes and I have more energy and just have a better outlook in general.  This is amazing to me that as good as I feel right now and I haven't really lost a lot that I in the past haven't stuck to what I am doing results or not.  I have been trying to drink more water. I usually drink a lot of soda even though it is diet I know that is not good for you.  I discoverd the Walmart brand of Mio and they have some great flavors.  I prefer the Cherry Limeade & Strawberry Kiwi.  Definitely makes getting my drink on easier. 

I also decided to eat a little more protein. I have been doing protein shakes for breakfast & lunch (I am using Visalus which is the shake mix that taste like cake mix) and I am doing pretty good but I added a homemade protein bar.  It is yummy!  It is 1 Cup high protein peanut butter, 1/2 cup honey, 3 scoops of protein & 1 Cup regular plain oats.  You just melt pb & honey and then mix protein & oats and spread it out on wax paper and then refridgerate.  It is yummy it you don't have to eat a lot and it is very feeling and it tastes like a treat!!

On the home front it is report card time here and I am pretty proud momma straight A's for Melayna and A's & B's for Erica.  Also we are preparing Zoe to go to a regular daycare.  Needless to stay she has stayed with family and is getting where she doesn't understand sharing etc.  So we decided that it is time to realize she has to interact with other kids.  She will be 3 May 1st and is not potty trained I have tried everything and she is just not having it.  I am also hoping that going to daycare and seeing other kids will help this along.  She told me this morning I had to take this picture of her and post it on my puter.  LOL so I will leave you with that. 

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The Disease I Have.....

 

Well we made it to Tuesday all and thank goodness yesterday was a tough day all around at home, work and everything in between.  We are having a mass exodus at work.  I guess the economy is getting a little better because people seem to be moving on.  So anyways that is not necessarily bad just makes coverage at work tough. I remember thinking man I wish I was confident enough to go out on a limb for a new job without any worries.

 

So anyways I got thru the day and got home and it is choas my youngest Zoe (she is two) she busted her lip at daycare so drama there and my middle one Melayna (she is nine)  she got her report card (all A's by the way) but she was upset because one went down from an A+ to an A and my oldest Erica (she is fifteen) she is just being kind mopey and quiet not really saying anything.  So once I deal with the immediate drama AKA Mom's ER & Condolences on the A (not A+) I decide ok I need to work out release some tension. Which by the way I was doing day #7 of the 30 day shred and I will say it seems to be getting easier.  Woohoo yay me!!

 

So anyways I am getting ready to go get my sweat on and I notice my oldest is just kinda blah and sad so I say to her why don't you come work out with me?  Now as I am saying this I am thinking yeah right she is 15 and lazy and only cares about hanging out with her friends and twitter and she looks at me as says OK!!! WHAT....needless to say I am shocked but elated.  So we go exercise and believe it or not she keeps up and we are having a pretty good time sweating it out together. I am just enjoying spending quality time with my daughter (which by the way lately seems few and far between).  So anyways we are sitting there stretching and she says to me I will never be as perfect as those girls on that video mom now this broke my heart.  Now this is not a child who usually has a self esteem issue or so I thought. We talked a little bit about it and I told her that she was her own person and not those girls and that she just needed to be the best she could be and be happy with herself. She seemed satisfied and went on with the night. 

 

As I was laying in bed later and got to thinking about my daughter's comment which was weighing heavy on my mind and I realized that we all have that disease called PERFECTION!  I know my strive for perfection flairs up on a daily basis.  I think sometimes it is mistaken for jealousy.  I know daily I feel tons of pressure to feel perfectly happy, perfectly functional and perfectly figured.  I want my marriage to be awesome and perfect.  I want my kids to be perfect and make the grade.  I see others in my life and I think if I could have what they have or if my husband could be a little more like that person then my life would be perfect.  I could go on this is just a small piece of the disease I have called perfection. The good news is I believe there is a cure.  I think the cure is just to be real and give ourselves a big huge reality check.

 

Here are some things that I said to myself to give myself a wake up call.....

 

Heather, you aren't the only one that feels worthless sometimes.

 

Heather, you aren't the only one that took your frustrations out on your children today.

 

Heather, you aren't the only one in this world that isn't making enough to support the lifestyle we want.

 

Heather, you aren't the only one that sometimes says things that hurt people.

 

Heather, you aren't the only one that hates your body sometimes.

 

Heather, you aren't the only one that can't control herself around food.

 

 

Ok you get the picture.  I just realized in that instant that I just need to be honest with who I am and all thing will fall into place.  I want my children to have the confidence to be REAL and HONEST see that no one is PERFECT.  In retrospect my child taught me something today.  I wonder what else I will learn when I slow down and listen and be ME.  So starting today I am going to live my life instead of trying to PERFECT my life.

 

 



Weekend Wrap-Up....

 

Well another fast and filled up weekend and before we know it is freakin Monday morning again!!! Didn't we just do this like 7 days ago?!?!?  So anywho it was a fairly busy but uneventful weekend. 

 

 So I am a notary and a friend of mine that I work with asked me if I would marry her. OK not her and I get married ok you get the just of it anyways. So the wedding is Saturday evening around like 5 at the beach.  So Friday night her, I and her finace got together over drinks and we rehersed ok maybe we rehersed drinking margarita's but we rehersed.  So once she felt comfortable with what all was happening we parted ways I told her to rest up and I would see her tomorrow night.  So I went home and was gonna clean my house and do laundry but the margarita's and my body had another idea.  I did however attempt to do day #5 of the 30 day shred.  Intoxicated exercising yes I went there.  I wasn't really drunk just feeling pretty relaxed. 

 

So Saturday morning I get up at the but crack of dawn I have an 8:15 eye appointment. Note to self don't plan early appointments when you will be relaxing in Margaritaville the night before.  So I make it there and the good news is my eyes are getting better the bad news is they have to order my RX and it will take like 2 weeks to get it.  Oh well I only need to see to read, drive etc.

 

 

So I get home and to my surprise my husband is cleaning!!! I thought the margaritas still have not warn off from last night I am hallucinating.  But, nope he was vacuuming and cleaning up this made Heather a very happy girl!! I asked him what he did wrong and he said nothing he just knew I would be tired and wanted to help me out!!!! AAAAAWWWWW so sweet I am such a sucker!!!

 

So anywho we chilled out for a few hours and then it was time to get ready for my officiant's debut!  I asked her what I should wear I don't really have many dresses or anything I am not the dressy type girl but she said something black or white and maybe summery so this is what I selected.......

 

 

I also got some awesome bling for the occasion!

 

 

 

So all in all it was a beautiful very small ceremony and the day turned out to be gorgeous!!

 

So after it was over I went back home and that is when things got really bad. I completely bombed on my diet not even sure why I was just so hungry maybe it was the sun I will blame it on the sun.  I had a burrito, a hot pocket (yeah I know uber gross right) and some M & M's peanut butter ones!! I am not even sure why I did that I felt awful and disgusting when I was done!! To top it off I didn't even freakin exercise I was so sloth like it was disgusting.  So when I woke up Sunday was still in carb and a sweets coma I decided today was going to be better I immediately did day #6 of the 30 day shred and missing one day really didn't set me back but I tell you I could tell that I missed a day.  So after that I did laundry and vegged out. 

 

So that was my oh so exciting weekend. I will leave you will the quote below and as I am a lover of shoes it is one I will live by!!

 

 

Love Ya Mean It!!!

 

Heather XOXO

 

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Finally Freakin Friday!!

Ok chicks it is FINALLY Friday!!! Yay!!! So this is just a random post about nothing.  Yesterday was just blah gloomy and yucky and I dodged rain drops every time I went out yeserday.  I was having a hohum day and just really wasn't feeling good about anything.  Not myself at all so I was kinda in a funk when I got home and this is what greets me at the door.....

 

 

She is just so darn cute.  So this definitely brightened up my day. So then I decided that I was tired of the mousy brown hair and that I wanted to go back to being blonde, kinda like a strawberry blonde. So I am in mid color and the door bell rings and it's a friend of my husband shows up with her 3 kids and there I am in all my hair coloring glory UGH!!! So I decided WTF I will just continue on and act like this is just a normal thing.  See new color below....

 

 

Not a great picture but you get the just of it.

So needless to say it was a very late night the kids were off their routine and wired and didn't want to go to bed so I am extremely tired and I didn't get up this morning and do day 5 of the 30 day shred so that means I have to do it when I get home tonight!! Ugh I know no pain no gain right. 

 

So this morning I got up and decided to get on the scale and I was down a little bit which is awesome I have reached 31% of my goal...go me, go me!!!

 

 

So this weekend will probably be fairly uneventful.  I have an eye appointment and then a wedding just a small 10 people wedding that will maybe take an hour outta my day.  After that it's shred, eat sleep, shred eat sleep......you get the picture!

 

So that goodness it is Finally Freakin Friday!!!

 

Love Ya Mean It....

Heather XOXO

 



Purse Party Link UP

 

Happy Thursday all!!! Today I am doing a link up with Mel & Erin.  I will say I love purses almost as much as I do shoes (which is saying ALOT).  I have quite a few and most of them I will admit they are probably chosen for function instead of fashion.  What can I say I am boring LOL. 

 

Ok so here is a picture of my purse......

 

I Purchased this purse from Avon (I know everyone is thinking old lady right?) well they have a line called Mark that is for the younger hip generation I don't know if I qualify for this but what the hell I think I do and that's all that counts right?

 

Here is a side view I love the pockets on the side. I throw my keys, cell phone, change etc whatever I don't want sinking to the bottom of my bottomless pit of a purse.

 

Ok you ready for the inside........drumroll please (Ok I realized after taking the picture the contents of my purse were not really exciting but here they are)

 

 

Ok first off always, always have a pair of sunglasses.  These are from Charlotte Russe I got them on the clearance rack for $5 holla! MMMkay then I do normally wear contacts but there are occasions my allergies kick up and I can't so I have glasses which are by Vera Bradley (as you can see from the case).  The lanyard on my keys are also Vera Bradley mom of three you need your hands free.   I went through the Vera Bradley stage and my husband said that looks so old lady and maybe it does but I loved it.  Ok wallet hmmm I don't know where I bought it from probably some flea market (which I love to go to BTW)but I was afraid to open it and show you it is kinda like when your kids clean their room and they pack everything in the closet and tell you not to open the door?  That is my wallet.  Then there is gum & floss toothpick combo.  Gotta have these must have good dental hygiene. :)  Your standard make up bag (contents below), extra lip gloss, head phones (these are an extra pair I tend to misplace things), A nail kit from 31 (I love this I have a pic of it below as well) brush, comb, mirror combo.  Love this never know when you need to comb your hair or check out your teeth.

 

I also always carry crystal light.  I am not a big plain water drinker but I love this stuff the strawberry lemonade is my fav.

 

 

Ok inside the make up bag is contact solution, hand sanitizer, aveeno hydrocortizone (have kids never know when the need will arise), a cough drop, tampons, random hair things, lip gloss which I love my favorite and I treat it like spun gold is the Chanel lip gloss I paid $50 bucks for it and I am going to use every last drop and savor it like my life depends on it.  Also I usually try to keep an allergy pill or two. Then you can see inside the 31 nail kit. I love this never know when you need to file or clip your nails.

 

Ok so there you have it were you intrigued.......hmmmm yeah me neither. 

 

On another note today was day 4 of the 30 day shred.  I killed it at about 5:30 this morning and sweated balls as usual, but I really felt like I was into it and was pushing myself as hard as I could.  At the time it SUCKED but when it was over I felt really awesome!!

 

Happy Friday Eve.....Love Ya Mean It!!

 

Heather XOXO

 

Weigh-In Wednesday-Workout, Weightloss & Willpower!!!!

 

 

Hey-Lo Everybody! Today is Weigh-In Wednesday with Erin & Alex.   This was also day 3 of the 30 day shred. Can you say S-O-R-E!!! Anyways I will say it is a good sore it reminds me often of how I am doing something about my weight and I will say it keeps me motivated.  So this morning I decided to get up at 5:00 am that is right 5:00 am (I am not a morning person by the way) and do day 3 of the SHRED! The reason I was doing this is I have a date night with the hubs tonight and wanted to get my sweat on at least once everyday! The alarm went off and my first reaction was to hit the snooze and roll over. So I did just that then all of a sudden I realized it was now or never and if I wanted to have big thighs and a saggy ass forever then I should just lay right there so, I staggered one eye shut to the bathroom.  Splashed some water on my face and decided to brush my teeth what can I say I felt like I looked like my breath stank!  So anyways did the morning deeds and then hopped on the scale.  What did I see 179.6 so being that on Monday I was 180.8 that is a loss of 1.2 lbs woohoo awesome go me go me (while dancing around)!! Ok so I know it is not huge but to me it is and I am so extremely proud of my self for getting up and sweating it out at the but crack of dawn!

 

1.Log my weight loss into diet bet! CHECK!

 

2. Brag to husband, blog, anyone who will listen! CHECK!!

 

3.  Smile all the way to work! CHECK!!

 

 

So I am riding on my workout and weightloss high!! I get to work and when I am skipping up the stairs (that is right I almost fall but I was ok) as I am opening the door I smell it....sniff sniff!!! That is when I realize it is pancakes and some kind of casserole!! Ugh are you freakin kidding me!!! Ok I am hypreventalating in the hall leaning on the wall thinking my will power is NOT this strong.  Someone walks by and they kind of stare at me strangely but they keep walking.  So I make it to my office and the smell is even worse there it is on the counter right outside my door.  One of my coworkers is getting married on Saturday and they are having a breakfast wedding shower. Well thanks for the freakin heads up!!! Ok so it was nice that we were doing this but had I known I would have been a little prepared for the high fat, high carb temptation that was calling me! So I just kept repeating 1.2 pounds, 1.2 pounds........etc!!  Finally about 9:30 they cleaned it all up and guess what I survived without even licking someones spoon or crumbs off the counter!!! 

 

Whew.......Ok I am able to do it I will succeed!! How does Jillian (AKA the Devil) put it(while shouting) YA, feel that burn that is the fat running scared from your body!!

 

So now I can work the rest of my day on the high of workouts, weightloss & willpower!!

 

Love Ya Mean It,

 

Heather XOXO



Fitness and Exercise Tuesday

 

Hey yall!! So it is Tuesday and I have been contemplating on what to write and I seen this awesome link up with Katie and wallah I had something to post.

 

So in yesterday's post I mentioned how I started a game on diet bet read here!

I am super excited so I got an email as to how it works and you have to send pictures of you on the scale and then a picture of a digital scale with your weight and a code word. 

 

Ok so 180.8 is my starting weight and my goal is to lose 4% of my starting weight which is approximately about 8 pounds.  Doesn't sound like a lot but if I can do this I will be ecstatic!!! It will be awesome!! I have been stuck at this week for a long time but I have realized I have put forth very little effort to achieve anything.  So to accomplish this goal I am doing Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred! You do level 1 for 10 days, level 2 for 10 days and level 3 for 10 days and they are 20 minute sessions. Sounds easy right.......WRONG! Ok maybe for some that are in a lot better shape than me but not for me.  But, alas I perservered and I completed the entire thing and I worked it into my busy day.  I had to lock the door in my bedroom while the kids beat on the door like everyone was dying (which they weren't by the way). There wasn't any blood loss or broken bones.

 

 

Here is a picture of me after it may not look like i was sweating balls but trust me I was sweating balls!! I am really proud of myself it is an accomplishment just to work this into my day! Have any of you out there tried Jillian's 30 day shred? What were your results and were you happy with them?  Did you add anything to the workout?

 

When I woke up this morning I was S-O-R-E!!!! I felt like I had been benchpressing a baby elephant!! But it was an awesome accomplished sore!

 

So stay tuned on my progress and I am gonna cross my fingers that I lose my 8 pounds.

 

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Love Ya Mean It.

 

Heather XOXO