Tuesday, March 5, 2013
When life gives you lemons "Pucker UP"!
Well it has been a few days since my rant on how my life kinda stinks right now. Don't get me wrong I know that life is not all fun and games or even close to fair. I also know life is what you make it. I am working on my self image in hopes that this will give me some self confidence to stand up for myself and not be just a door mat. I have a tendancy to be a little bit of a yes person. I don't want to hurt feelings and I want to make everyone happy. Yeah right has that EVER happened?!?! I know it is something that I will never see in my lifetime. So when life gives you lemons what do you do? Well I was talking to a very wise women(my mother) recently and I said to her when life gives you lemons what do you do and she said well you Pucker UP and tell it to kiss your a@#!! Ok well that sounds awesome and something I would like to do but exactly how do I do that? She said basically you put up with life and it's lemons until you can't take it anymore and then you pucker up tell it to kiss your a@#! So I have been contemplating this for a while and I guess in my life situation I have yet to make it to the breaking point or Pucker UP stage as my mother put it. I love my girls they mean everything to me always have and always will. I do love my husband I can't say it is as much now as I did in the beginning but I think breaking your trust will do that to any type of relationship. I am still trying to make lemonade out of my lemons in hope that things will work out and that things are not irretrivably bitter and broken and I don't know if that will ever happen or not but I am going to give it my best. I also know on the other side of things it takes two people to make it or break it and only time will tell how committed my husband is to doing it. He says all of the right things and I really really want to believe him but it is so hard I hear him say the words but I keep saying to myself he won't stick to it he can't or he doesn't really mean it he is just telling me what I want to hear. Stay tuned to hear if I Pucker UP or not!